My California

Released 2010

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LYRICS

Calling California is there anybody home
Hello California won’t you please pick up the phone
I wanna say I love you but I’m a million miles away
And I am thinking of you I miss you and LA

For you and you alone I’ll lay my monsters down
And we’ll watch the sun come up over California
For you and you alone I’ll find my way back home
And I’ll love you like the sun loves California
You’re my California

I have made you suffer left you waiting in the rain
While I was chasing demons in the deserts of my pain
You know me better than the poison in my veins
So my love remember when God forgets my name

For you and you alone I’ll lay my monsters down
And I’ll watch the sun come up over California
For you and you alone I’ll find my way back home
And I’ll love you like the sun loves California
My California

I wanna feel the ocean breeze
Let the waves wash over me
I’ll leave my winters in the sand
Hey California… California

For you and you alone I’ll lay my monsters down
And we’ll watch the sun come up over California
For you and you alone I’ll find my way back home
And I’ll love you like the sun loves California
California… You’re my California

My California… You’re my California

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

Sunday morning the world’s still sleeping
And the rain keeps falling like angels weeping
And I, I feel the tears on my skin
They’re trying to tell me something I listen

Blues and yellows tap on my window
And I let the night go with all my shadows
And I, I feel the sun on my skin
It’s trying to tell me something I listen

Life is calling, life is calling
Life is calling out my name
Make it matter say it louder
Stay alive another day
Life is calling out my name

Perfect houses with good intentions
Where the happy families hide their broken dishes
And I, I hear the scars on my skin
They’re trying to tell me something so I listen

Life is calling, life is calling
Life is calling out my name
Make it matter say it louder
Stay alive another day
Life is calling out my name

It’s the wind over the ocean
It’s the secrets in the sand
It’s all trying to tell me something
So I’m listening

Life is calling, life is calling
Life is calling out my name
Make it matter just say it louder
Stay alive another day
Life is calling, life is calling
Life is calling out my name

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

Happiness is leaning on my shoulder
Like a cigarette burning me all over it is killing me
I’m slipping through the cracks of my sweet misery
Sunday morning stories of you
Is always all about you

Happiness is crying in the kitchen drinking
Like a friend and all my ugly wishes it is listening
While I’m choking on my pride and all the songs I scream
Sunday morning stories of you
Is always all about

Happiness is laughing at me like a clown
Watching my nirvana crashing to the ground
In the middle of the perfect nervous breakdown
Happiness any day now… any day now

Loneliness is hiding with the lonely faking
Gratefulness while polishing his trophy
She was beautiful but beautiful don’t matter after wonderful
Sunday morning stories like these
Are always about

Happiness is laughing at me like a clown
Watching my nirvana crashing to the ground
In the middle of the perfect nervous breakdown
Happiness any day now… any day now… any day now

Running always running always falling on my
Falling on my face, on my face

Happiness is laughing at me like a clown
Watching my nirvana crashing to the ground
In the middle of the perfect nervous breakdown
Happiness any day now… any day now

Any day, any day now
Happiness any day now
Happiness is any day now
Happiness any day now

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Timothy James Fagan & Rune Westberg

Coffee on the floor
Listen to the water boil
Screaming on the phone
Trying to make somebody call
Jumping off the roof
Maybe I’ll survive again
Staring at the sun
Waiting for the world to end

Oh… love is the hardest
Oh… love is a mess
I know it’s all my fault
I just don’t love anymore
Anymore

The devil’s on the porch
Drinking with the radio
Angel at the door
I don’t let her in no more
If I had a chance
Maybe I’d forgive myself
And if I had a heart
I’d give it to somebody else

Oh… love is the hardest
Oh… love is a mess
I know it’s all my fault
I just don’t love anymore
Anymore

I could say I’m sorry
But my heart don’t feel a thing
Love’s an ugly story
It’s the hardest thing

Oh… love is the hardest
Oh… love is a mess
I know it’s all my fault
This is all my fault
I don’t love anymore
Can’t give anymore
I don’t have anymore

Love is the hardest
Love is the hardest part

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

Your love’s like a cigarette burning on my breath tonight
Your loves leaves no promises for the emptiness inside
And I know that I should leave but I know I’m gonna stay
No good man I ever known has made me hurt this way

But everybody wants somebody
Somebody good to love
I just want anybody
Bad love is good enough
Your bad love is good enough

Your love’s got no sympathy when you talk to me that way
Your love’s like a heart attack like a slap across the face
And I know that I should leave but I know I’m gonna stay
No good man I ever known has made love this way

But everybody wants somebody
Somebody good to love
I just want anybody
Bad love is good enough
Your bad love is good enough

I wish I could hate you
Baby I wish I could
I wish I could

Everybody wants somebody
Somebody good to love
I just want anybody
Bad love is good enough
Everybody wants somebody
Somebody good to love
I just want anybody
Bad love is good, bad love is good
Bad love is good enough

Bad love is good
Bad love is good
Bad love is good enough

Bad love is good
Bad love is good
Bad love is good enough

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

Headlight watching sick of talking
Shut your mouth and drive
Feels like leaving there ain’t no reason
We can’t still get high

Roll down the window and lock the door
Don’t care if you love me anymore, anymore

Baby just drive
Just drive
Cause baby tonight
I don’t wanna fight
I just wanna watch you drive
Watch you drive

Got your girlfriend’s letter she ain’t no better
But I’m the only woman tonight
And I’m choking on trouble so pass me the bottle
Shut your mouth and drive

Roll down the window and lock the door
Don’t care if you love me anymore, anymore

Baby just drive
Just drive
Cause baby tonight
I don’t wanna fight
I just wanna watch you drive
Watch you drive

I can keep your secrets and I’ll believe your lies
Anything to keep your one more night it’s alright

Baby just drive
Just drive
Yeah baby just drive
Just drive, just drive
I don’t wanna fight
Cause baby tonight
I just wanna watch you drive
Watch you drive
I just wanna watch you drive

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

It’s gonna be a dark cold December
With shaking lilies in the yard
Your sweet face I will remember
And how I’m gonna miss your stubborn heart
So forgive me for my weakness
I guess my faith is a little stoned
The angles cried on a Friday
The day that God walked you home

So goodbye sister heroine
I’ll remember everything
I love you I love you I love you
Goodbye white trash beauty queen
Your crooked heart and your beat up dreams
I love you I love you I love you

It hurts to laugh here without you
A piece inside of us is gone
Mama tries to smile too
Ain’t never seen that woman try so hard
No more working Alvarado
No more liars tramps or tricks
Your skin and bones don’t cast no shadow
On an empty bed in Motel Six

So goodbye sister heroine
I’ll remember everything
I love you I love you I love you
Goodbye white trash beauty queen
Your crooked heart and your beat up dreams
I love you I love you I love you

We all threw roses at your feet
While you burned our crosses in the street
So if you’re looking down on me
I love you, love you

Goodbye sister heroine
I’ll remember everything
I miss you I miss you I miss you
Goodbye sister heroine
And to the hell you were living in
I love you I love you I love you
Goodbye white trash super star
Shine on wherever you are
I love you I love you I love you
I love you I love you

 

Writer & Composer:  Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

God bless this God bless that God I miss you now
All the people left when the blue sky crashed
And I can’t do this alone
I am scared to change and to stay the same
When I’m calling out your name

Take it easy on me
I will trust you I will let you
Hurt me carefully
Take it easy on me
I break easily and this steel butterfly
Will learn to fly eventually
God take it easy on me

When I talk like this when I tear me apart
When I raise my voice I break my heart
But if I gave it all let the wall come down
Would you take my hand would you show me how
I don’t know my place I don’t know my own face
Or all the lines I can’t erase

Take it easy on me
I will trust you I will let you
Hurt me carefully
Take it easy on me
I break easily and this steel butterfly
Will learn to fly eventually
God take it easy on me

No I was never one to lean on
Fighting this war against the wind
When I find ground to rest my feet on
I will lay my weapons down

Take it easy on me
I will trust you I will let you
Hurt me carefully
Take it easy on me
I break easily and this steel butterfly
Will learn to fly eventually
God take it easy on me

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

I’ve been to hell and it looked just like heaven
I met a friend and I felt forgiven
Like you and everyone else
I am ashamed but I am just human
With oceans of dreams and seas of confusion
Like you and everyone else

Holding my breath when I just want to scream
Hiding the face I don’t want you to see
Making a mess of myself trying to be like you, like you
Losing my faith when I say I believe
Looking to you for the answers I need
Walking away from myself trying to be
Like you and everyone else

They put me away and told me I’m crazy
I don’t belong but maybe they’ll save me
Talk to the pain it’s been here forever
The drugs make me sane but they don’t make me better

Holding my breath when I just want to scream
Hiding the face I don’t want you to see
Making a mess of myself trying to be like you, like you
Losing my faith when I say I believe
Looking to you for the answers I need
Walking away from myself trying to be
Like you and everyone else

Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, till this is over
Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, I am worth fighting for

Holding my breath when I just want to scream
Hiding the face I don’t want you to see
Making a mess of myself trying to be like you, like you
Losing my faith when I say I believe
Looking to you for the answers I need
Walking away from myself trying to be
Like you and everyone else

Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, everyone else
Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, like you
Talk to me, talk to me, talk to me, everyone else

Walk in the rain let it fall on my face
There’s a shadow of doubt but a sky full of grace
I’m not like you and everyone else

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Rune Westberg

Something’s coming in the dead of night
It’s got me running at the speed of light
My soul shines like a suicide
Something’s coming in the dead of night

Something’s rising with the new day’s sun
Now everybody’s got a holy gun
The devil walks but the angels run
Something’s rising with the new day’s sun

Everybody’s sober, sober
Everybody’s sober, sober
Everybody’s sober and I’m still high, I’m still high

I belong to everything
City lights and broken dreams
Concrete stars and picture shows
I belong so let me go

Everybody’s sober, sober
Everybody’s sober, sober
Everybody’s sober and I’m still high, I’m still high

Don’t tell me that it’s over
Don’t put your hand on my shoulder
I’m not getting sober I’m getting high

I belong to what I believe in
I’m not dead and I ain’t done dreaming
I belong to this world I know
I belong so let me go

Everybody’s sober, sober
Everybody’s sober, sober
Everybody’s sober and I’m still high, I’m still high
High, I’m still high

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart & Jon Nichols & Rune Westberg

Daddy is blowing leaves around the lawn
He’s laughing and joking humming funny songs
He’s saying you gotta stand for something child
His heart is wide open when he looks me in the eyes
He says when the weight of the world is on your shoulders
The rope is getting thin run for the hills lay down in the water

But I just wanna come home, home, home
Where I started from home, home, home
Before the weight of the world
Turns my heart to stone

Mama is holding tomatoes in the yard
Her hair is all golden and her soul’s a superstar
She’s dancing to billies you gotta find your way
She keeps saying don’t worry I’ll love you anyway
Then she says if you ever feel that you don’t matter
Or your best ain’t good enough, run for the hills lay down in the water

But I just wanna come home, home, home
Where I started from home, home, home
Before the weight of the world
Turns my heart to stone

I was so lucky as anyone could ever be
My love is long and deeper than the sea
No I never said it and I hope you will forgive
Cause I thank you both for showing me how to live
If the weight of the world should leave you tired
Abandoned and stoned I will be there I am your daughter

I’m coming home, home, home
I’m coming home, home, home
Yeah I’m coming home
Before the weight of the world, before the weight of the world
Yeah I’m coming home
Before the weight of the world, before the weight of the world
Yeah I’m coming home
Before the weight of the world, before the weight of the world
I’m coming home
Yeah, I’m coming home

 

Writer & Composer: Beth Hart